Parker Life

NEW SCHOOL YEAR!

2011-09-06T20:43:00.002-05:00

Well the new school year is well under way and I must say this year is so much better than last! My children are in good hands this year and I feel so blessed and thankful for that.

School is important-I want my kids to have a passion for learning and exploring and that can only happen when it is presented to them in ways that are positive! Yes there will be times kids hate school but not learning!

Shawn's teacher this year told me she witnessed how he was treated last year and since she was new was not sure how to handle it but assured me that he was an amazing and bright child and will not be treated that way again and is so excited to have him because he is amazing! I cannot believe he is in 1st grade! WOW time is flying by!

Talk about flying by my baby girl-well she is in 5th grade umm someone wanna tell me how that happend! Next year is middle school! Im a bit scared!

But this year she is not going to fall through the cracks-her teacher and the principle are finally listening to me. Her doctor is finally hearing and listening to me! She is so smart and her personality is wonderful but as I know all to often is just on a different page than others and needs help understanding things differently and that can be very frustrating-It kills me to know she has to deal with this as I have. But I tell her- she is smarter than the rest of the world and just has to be taught differently because of that but it isn't her fault it's a gift and others have to embrace it!

Attention Deficit Disorder is not something that can easily be lived with but with the right people, concepts, and support-which support comes from everyone-teachers, principles, doctors, family and friends- A.D.D can be a gift and that is what I want her to understand!

I also feel this year will be not just for learning but growing in other aspects too!

She is asking about crushes and is it okay to like boys- she is asking questions about our faith and growing more in God everyday! She starts Bible Bowl again soon and is so excited!

Cant wait to see the accomplishments of the year!

As for Bryan and I-we are overcoming life and choices everyday! We take it sometimes- a minute at a time! We are growing closer and gettng to know each other all over again! It is improving daily! Thank you all for your love-support- understanding!

Here's to a better year-fingers crossed!

Hollar later! The Parkers

Summertime!

2011-06-15T21:44:00.005-05:00

The summer is suppose to be a time for family, fun and relaxation. Instead so far this summer has been nothing but a constant reminder of how life is so fragile and no day should be wasted and don't let anyone go without knowing what they mean to you-no matter how small the connection is! Because they could be gone in an instant!

We had a sleep over with the kids friends from Hico and that was fun and went to Fort Worth to spend time with Bryan's mom and went every where but had a blast.

Then we started summer recreation which the kids play basketball, run track, play tennis and physical fitness everyday, and play volleyball. We are also doing lots of swimming.

But soon after that I went to 2 funerals back to back. I lost a friend and that was tough and her memory and kindness and sweet nature will forever be in my heart and I pray her children are kept safe and are reminded daily how much their mommy loved them and how special they are!

Then following that funeral I lost my Great Aunt Dean Harper. Losing her hurts-bad! I miss her and her stories and funny comments. I will miss her hardheaded and strong wisdom. I will miss her hugs and kind words and pretty eyes! She truly will be missed by many and I know she is not hurting anymore and is with her husband and pawpaw and I think that is hard too-she was my link to them-in some sense Dean made it all okay and assured me that they were alive since they did die when I was young but I do remember them but she talked about them and told stories about them and that was nice to hear. She will be greatly missed by many.

Church camp starts soon-and it will be the first year she has not been there in my lifetime so that willbe very weird and hard to cope with.

Here are a few pics of the kids from this summer:

Babies

2011-03-28T22:57:00.001-05:00

On March 22, I had a hysterectomy-at first I was quiet excited and thought I was ready. BUT TONIGHT-

as I lay with my lil guy tonight reading him an awesome kid's book- named

"If Animals Kiss Goodnight Like We Kiss Goodnight."

It hit me-never again will I feel a little flutter in my tummy. I will never hear the heartbeat over the ultrasound. I will never teach another little one to speak, walk, or rock one to sleep signing the same lullaby over and over.

Now don't get me wrong I had a tubal when my son was born but sometimes even those aren't real reliable. And it's not that I want any more babies. I have the best of both worlds a little girl and a little man-and I love them more than anything.

I guess its just knowing that part of my life is completely over.

Im am 28- many women my age are just either having their second or third but I sit back and think- now what am I suppose to do?

It brought a lump to my throat as I finished the book-looked at my guy passed snuggled in my arms-Im not sure if he even finished the book. I tried hard to swallow it back and just be thankful for the 2 healthy happy ones I have.

Kathy will be turning 10 soon soo I'm about to have my hands super full. She is so full of life and dreams and hilarious and just thinks that she is queen bee. Shawn is quiet for the most part-an observer in many situations. So I have the best of both worlds.

SO here's to the future- I say bring it on- I think Im ready for the next chapter in this job.

I will miss those first years and the excitement of a little one on the way but now I have to look forward to is school plays, football games, and long talks and laughs that will hurt.

Hollar back soon- Much love,

The Parkers

Hobbies

2011-03-14T20:32:00.002-05:00

I love to write as many people know. Writing is a cleansing for me and it is a way to just look at life in a new light and a new perspective.

There is a part of me that would love to see this hobby become more than a hobby. I have been working on a children's book series about a raccoon raised by squirrels. I know I know- seriously raccoons and squirrels. But I love these animals but Im sure many of you are surprised it does not have anything to do with cats or kittens or the feline breed. Hmm that is in the works lol.

I have also just been doing some free writing and some thought provoking writing that is dealing with life decisions as they come and go.

It has been quiet hard for me to keep up with this blog here- at times I forget that I have it. At times, I get so caught up in what is really going on and forget that I have this to write on.

As a mom I just forget everything all together if it does not pertain to the worlds of a 5 year old boy and a 9 year old girl.

As Kat enters in a different stage in her life she is full of intriguing questions and some I would realy like to ignore and just say "go play with the dog and be a kid." But in a world where everything is so in their faces and the information out there anywhere for them to find I cannot always choose the "go be a kid and go play' route.

Shawn is a breath of fresh air at times because he is still so young that he is not thinking on the issues as Kat does. I love that he is so young and innocent in his thinking and find my conversations with him quiet refreshing and fun. The problems are easy to solve most of the time. And at times, Im slapped in the face with our conversations and find the solutions to my own issues in his world.

Bryan and I are at a different place right now and hopefully will one day look back on everything and say "wow-glad that is over." Just unsure about that right now. Just remember for every action is a reaction. And although that reaction may no be what is best- it is the way a person chose to react whether it be out of anger, pain, confusion or bitterness or just out of spite.

Another thing that is happening is SPRING! I love this time a year and then follows my all time favorite time- SUMMER!

I am missing Spring in East Texas though- the smells, the rain, the fireflies, the green grass. Pastures of rolling green and baby horses and calves running and playing.

We are slowly adjusting to where we live now and I am learning my way around the area quiet well although I do get lost I try to not get frustrated and just laugh and embrace it knowing that sooner or later- I will find my way back to where I need to be and head home out of frustration because I didn't find where I am suppose to be so I shall try again another day.

ANYWAYS-that is all for now-hollar back when I can!

Much love and light to you all!

The Parkers

Christmas and Anniversary!

2010-12-29T15:06:00.002-06:00

Wow- what a year!
It has been very crazy and eye opening!

The kids had a great Christmas-at mom and dad's this year. Although
keeping them young and innocent is getting harder as they get older. They
are questioning how real Santa is. Christmas is so fun when they are small-
its like if they find out Santa isnt real it wont be near as fun.
I know that they grow and will find out I just want them to wait a lil' longer.

Kathy is 9. Shawn is 5. Bryan is 31 and I well Old enough! Kat will be graduated
in less than 10 years. Its about to be a fast 10 years though. Shawn will be driving in
that amount of time almost.
As for Bryan and I well- we are celebrating 10 years of marriage this month
and its quite scarry. I take a step back and see where we began and started and
its funny that we live in Andrews again-especially now that it has been 10 years.

I would have never thought that what all has happend has happend in that amount of
time but it has and it has made us stronger and made me realize what I can survive.

As of right now the best marriage advice I can give is- take it a day at a time, and when
that seems impossible take it a minute at a time. Dont speak when angry- it doesnt help.
Moments of silence are great to plan what you really mean.

I look back on my wedding day and know how scared I really was. I took a leap-the biggest
jump to date. Many think we married because of the package that was on its way but
that isnt true we were already engaged. We just moved the date up from June to December.

Its funny how time changes people and their dreams so heres to the future whatever it
may bring!

Love ya'll hollar later1 Amber

NOVEMBER 2010

2010-11-28T23:29:00.002-06:00

There hasn't been much going on since my last post.

The kids are doing great and making it here and seem to be adjusting well. Shawn seems to be settling finally in class and although he isnt very volcal on what goes on I do hear from others how great he is doing and what a wonderful lil man he is growing into.
Kathy seems to be okay-she is making friends and loving it as far as I can tell. Her report card was great- just one C but it was a high and in Math soo its okay-I can live with that. As long as she is trying and I can see she is.

Thanksgiving came and went and I cannot believe that we have lived here now 5 months. I miss my friends greatly and think of them often. I know that just because I left doesnt mean we cant still talk and hang out but it is hard with me being amom. I just cant pick up and go see them when the day has been bad and enjoy some chocolate with them and hang out and breathe.
But I am thankful for them and know that there will come a time when I can see them again.

Christmas is right around the corner- I hate this time of year. I am not sure why but I just have never been a fan. I find it harder and harder every year to perk up and get a tree and throw decorations on it but I know the kids love it and enjoy it so we do it. It seems that people only focus on what to get or money this time of year or lets be nice just because of Christmas but as soon as it is over that goes out the window.

Bryan and I are getting ready for our 10 year anniversary. This year it comes with a breath of deep relief- it was a tough year and glad to see it go. I am glad to see us hanging on. Take it a day at a time and sometimes even by minutes so that we can remind each other of what it is were doing.

Looking forward to the spring and summer- warmer temperatures and pretty days. It will be nice to be able to not freeze and wear my flipflops without numb toes. I miss my friend the hot sunshine oh and rain where are you will I ever see you again? I remember seeing you all the time but we dont live there anymore- we now live where you hardly ever visit. I do miss you though and cant wait for it to pour here.

Well that is all I know Like I said life is very slow right now which I welome and am comforted by the lack of action around here.

Love ya bunches- hollar later Amber

2010-10-06T14:11:00.004-05:00

Just a few pics from the summer and moving here.

A VERY LONG TIME.. SORRY

2010-10-06T13:58:00.002-05:00

As pointed out to me I havent been on here in a while. Things have been CRRAAZZYY!
First of all in May of 2010 Bryan lost his job in Hico-- he immediately left to work with his dad in New Mexico. We thought it was going to be a short term thing.
But May turned into June-kids missed Bryan, Bryan and I were losing touch- so we go to churchcamp and I was so totally against moving. I loved being Hico-I loved our life there-the house, the family, the scenery, the friends.
I kept saying "No moving is not happening." But apparently--someone else had other plans and all week at camp small messages and big messages kept coming to me about how I was ignoring what was goin on around me and being scared and being stuck. People kept saying "As long as your with Bryan-it will be fine."
Scarry thought about moving-literally I was crushed. So in July-we packed and moved to Andrews Texas.
Talk about change-much bigger, more people, more places to eat. But at the same time-much bigger and more people.
I have lived in Andrews before-when I was in high school and I loved it but I had special friends who were here with me. Now not so much the story.
Kathy and Shawn are still adjusting. Deep inside me yes I miss Hico and I miss everything soo much. But for my children-being positive is what needs to happen. So that is what I am trying to do soo much. When they are gone at school is when I try to deal with adjusting. Bryan is working all of the time which is not what we are use to.
I am pushing Kathy and Shawn to meet and talk to people. Kathy has done amazing and loves school and the school is amazing for her. Instead of us paying for testing being done to see why she struggles in certain subjects- the school here does it.
Shawn is still struggling-he still fights me going to school-he tells me how awful his class is and how mad it makes him. Kindergarten is suppose to be the best year ever-- and I am getting frustrated and disappointed that it isnt for him soo we may see what can be done there.
Other than that we are here-it is October-so again Fall is here and my favorite time-Summer- is gone.
That should be everything it has been crazy and hard to adjust but one day at a time and Bryan says only 25 years here and we can go back... Sooo hope time flies.

Love n hugs
Amber

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO THE BEST MAN EVER!

2009-12-30T17:49:00.003-06:00

It has been a long time since I last posted-life has been busy.

Shawn still has hiccups and so the testing is still occurring and will be going back to gastro next week and the pulmonologist in Feb. But other than that is amazing and growing up and turning out to be soo handsome but of course I am a bit biased!
Kathy is doing okay-struggling with her grades but hope to figure out some tricks to get her back to where she wants to be soon.
Christmas came and went very smoothly. The kids loved everything that Santa brought them and thankful to grandparents who were able and kind enough to chip in and buy a swing set for them-they are soo excited!
December is a special month for us-it is when Bryan and I were married. Today is our anniversary.
We have been married now for 9 years. 9 years ago I was right about 5:40-I was shaking so bad that I could barely stand-I couldn't breathe and then on the outside of my door I hear his voice say the sweetest things to me and pepping me up. My world was going to change forever-then my cousin Keith comes to get me and prepares me for the longest walk in my life. All I could hear was the song playing and my heart in my throat-I look up and I see him. He was perfect just as I remembered him-and then I couldnt get there fast enough-but then I see all these people starring at me-many I had no idea who they were and a few that I had loved for a few months due to new friends and then those that I had loved for years.
Then Bryan's uncle who married us said "there will be even greater temptations for you now because the world will see that you have a ring on your hand and will want to make you break that vow-that promise. So protect it with your life." Those words have forever rang in my brain forever.
Bryan and I have been through soo much in the past 9 years and there were times when we both felt that everyone was against us including each other. But here we are tonight-I am married to my hero-to the man I saw in Uncles and said "I will marry that man." and I did and I have never been more sure than I am tonight that I am with who I am suppose to be with.
He is amazing-strong and let's me be me and really is the only one who has ever loved me for me and accepted all of me despite everything I mess up he still loves me. I am thankful for him, his hands that hold me strong and tight, his eyes that see me despite my flaws still say the most amazing things to me, push me to get through the toughest times on my own when I think I cannot do it. He reminds me what a Christian is to be like and what I take for granted sometimes. Without him-I would not have survived life and would not be here today litterally!
I am thankful for the lessons, tears and fights that have gotten us to tonight.
I love him and my heart has never loved one as much as him.
So Bryan Quade Parker-thank you for taking me as your wife, and thank you for holding on when I didnt feel that I should be loved.
Here's to the next 90 years!

Later Amber

FALL 2009-YUCK

2009-10-11T23:39:00.003-05:00

Ok =I have to say that I hate this weather. I am freezing! I was made to feel the sun burn my skin and the warm breeze blow-not have cold chills when it is 55 outside. Although I do get to slouch around in sweats all day now and wear my hoodies so that is good but still-hate this weather. I miss my sunshine. It is really bugging me.

Kathy is doing totally fantabulous! She made the AB honor roll-in the first 6 weeks. Usually it takes her several times but she is just glowing. Her favorite subject is science. Her math grade is amazing and she is coming home with her homework done everyday. She is growing up!

Shawn is loving learning. He has never come home with a frown on his calendar and he constantly tells me he wants smileys on "every single day of his calenders." He is learning so much-and to see that excitement in his eyes is a blast. I remember that look when Kathy started learning and asking all sorts of questions that spurred more questions on certain topics at this age.
He writes his name and thinks that his friends are great. He does have "close" friends-one day, he was on the playground and sister caught him as she walked by holding hands with a friend. Well they got in the car and she told me and he died-he just screamed "we are nothing but very close fun friends!" I reassured him that it was okay. And as long as he was nice to everyone that is all that matter. But deep inside it was hilarious. Knowing that he even has "close" friends-I am torn. I know he is growing up but I wish I could be a fly at least a few days a week to hear and witness things in their lives that I am not seeing now. He is also saying that a few of the teachers and the nurse at the school are his "favoritist" people because they help him and make things nice. Teachers-of all ages-have to know that parents want as much communication and the inside dirt on things that happen up there-comments or ideas that the kids have that are funny or insightful. Those moments are ones we, as parents, miss. Dont keep em and forget them-share them so how.
Both of the kids have such awesome teachers and we communicated almost daily with emails. I love that communication. Anytime I have a question-I just email and usually get an answer from a few minutes to a few hours.
Now as far as health goes-we have done some heavy talking with the doctors-neither of my kids will have the special flu shot for N1H1. Kathy can have the flu shot now and will have it soon but Shawn cannot until we clear up what is goin on with his lungs. He did see the gastroentonologist and she said several things-first she wants him to have a cat scan of tummy which will occur in a few days. She did blood work and chest x rays- chest xray was not clear so wants to see if it is asthma related or infection which we are working on. She also found another swollen lymph node under his arm. The blood test though ruled out anything scarry like cancer. She put him on another acid reflux med and a new antibiotic on top of his other meds-she thinks his stomach is not properly emptying when he eats and digests then it continues to get full and pushes on diaphragm and causes hiccups. We will know more after cat scan.
Thank you for prayers-and thoughts. God has given me my children and has taught me the most valuable lessons in life, on top of what I have learned through his example, through my children.
Bryan and I are wonderful and have almost been married for 9 years. It has been an amazing but difficult fight to get here. And we are ready for the next 29. We are thankful that we are growing and that we are learning new things everyday. God really blessed me when I found Bryan.

Well ok enough of mushy stuff-hollar later and hope the sun comes out soon.
The Parkers

UPDATE ON SHAWN

2009-09-15T12:49:00.002-05:00

Hey I am becoming awful at this.
Ok so Shawn has had a rough few weeks. The first week of September-Shawn became ill with bronchitis. So we began the winter regimen already: the antibiotics, the breathing treatments.
He is done with the antibiotics but still has bad coughing. So the breathing treatmens are still going on and they make him super excited and hyper.
Last night I was in the middle of my final exam-literally had an hour left til I could turn it in. I made it but not before the small interruption from Shawn throwing up constantly for several hours. He has a fever still and is resting and taking things easy.
But first thing after Kat went to school I had to take Shawn to the doctor-the specialist for the neck. The doctor said that he has an allergy infection and that is causing lymphnodes to infect. He put him on a nasal spray, then he put him on Singular for chronic coughing and weezing. It is used on asthma patients but he said this will help with other things too. Then he changed his breathing treatment meds from albuterol to another one. He said that should cut down on the jitters.
Shawn did get the hiccups while there and the doctor was interested in that too-I did tell him we are going to a specialist in October for that. He did say that the singulair will help his chest so that it might also make the hiccups easier on his chest.
ANYWAYS thanks for the prayers, words of comfort and thoughts. Now if we can get the hiccups under control I think I will be able to stop thinkin the worst. Thankfully Kathy has remained well for the most part-she did get sick on Sunday night with fever coughing and upset stomach but never had any vomiting or anything else from her. She stayed home with me yesterday but felt great today.
Ok well I better go.
Hollar later
Amber

PICTURES OF CAMPING WITH YOGI BEAR

2009-08-31T17:37:00.004-05:00

THIS IS JUST A BUNCH OF PICTURES FROM OUR CAMPING TRIP WITH YOGI BEAR AT JELLY STONE PARK. IT WAS A BLAST. WE ALSO WENT TUBING DOWN THE GUADALUPE RIVER AND THAT WAS FUN-SORRY NO RIVER RAT PICS OF THAT THOUGH. HOPE YOU ENJOY THE PICS. HOLLAR LATER AMBER!

SCARED AND NERVOUS-TRYING TO HAVE FAITH

2009-08-25T21:48:00.002-05:00

I know that we should just pray and have faith and know that whatever happens that we are going to be okay.
Shawn has had a lump on his neck for a while and it was okay but we went to the doctor to check up on several issues. At first the doctor said its just a swollen lymphnode it will be okay.
But then later in the appointment he said "you know what I do think that is too big and it is a bit hard so lets get himt to a pediatric specialist for that. I also want him to go to a pediatric gastro doctor because of the hiccups."
I know you think of hiccups as nothing major but he gets them everyday and they hurt bad.
So we thought it was acid reflux but its not so now we are going to run some tests to see what is going on.
I just have to remain strong and know that he will be okay and whatever happens we can survive.
But at the same time I am worried about my little man. He is having a blast at school and loves going. He really already has learned alot and we had no fits on the first or second day. He told me "Bye mom see ya later-love ya. Now go make my cookies." I did- I made him cookies and then they got a milkshake too.
It has been a great week. He was so tired when he got home-he told me he was going to play cars and was in the floor in front of the door-and like 5 minutes later I hear snoring! He had crashed-so to speak-his car still in his hand.
Kathy had a great first couple of days too-she has grown so much. We cut her hair-she wanted it in a swing bob. It comes right below the chin-I will take pics later-but she looks like my baby again because she has a baby face thanks to her daddy. She loves 3rd grade.
Well it is getting late and I am tryin to go to bed early sooner or later.
Good night Amber

AND WE HAVE DECIDED.....

2009-08-17T17:19:00.003-05:00

Hey ya'll how are you?
Life here is moving right along.
After many months to think, pray and debate and discuss options-I think that Bryan and I have twisted and turned and debated and discussed this topic till it has nothing left.
We think that from where we are the best thing for Shawn is to go to preschool. We feel that the cirriculum, the teacher, the other kids and the opportunities that it will provide will be good and can only build him up.
I am expecting some behavior changes but just like with this and every other bad habit you see the behavior-you then correct the behavior. If the behavior is repeated-you punish if not you reward. It will only be for a few hours in the afternoon.
He is excited and I am excited to see how much his little brain learns. I am not really sad about the issue because I know that I will have him in the mornings to myself and to preteach and remind him and eat lunch with him.
It is a new stage in our lives-another year to grow and explore and learn and see what is to come.
We are facing this change in our life positively and full of prayer, and just ask for the support in this choice. Again-you can disagree but still be nice.
Thanks for all of the ideas and thoughts on this-I for one did not think that this was such a hot topic but obviously it is.
Thanks
Hollar later
Amber

More thinking on preschool.

2009-08-10T13:55:00.002-05:00

I have read all of my comments on my facebook and realize that many are for preschool. But a few aren't: To each it's own.

I do not think that it is going to hurt him spirituality or hold him back from becoming a Christian.
My daughter did go to preschool when she was 3 and 4. She loved it and was happy about it. It was an amazing experience for her. The difference here is first Kathy went through a church. Second difference is special people that I knew very well were her teachers.
But I know the teacher Shawn will be having and have had conversations with her and I am impressed. I am comforted by things she has said.
No matter the age of a child unfortunately our world is changing daily and why be fake about it. Sooner or later the child will have to enter the world. The child's parents are responsible for guiding him and keeping him safe in the world and making sure that everything around him is safe for him. I know most of the people who will be in his class and their parents. I am impressed but as always there will be people no matter what you will not agree with everything.
But I do not think that me sending him to preschool is giong to ruin and damage his whole demeanor.
I also think that where matters-there are schools where the preschool program is awful and the teacher and environment would be horrible and damaging on the child. But I do not feel that with this school. I have been in the school as a substitue teacher, a parent. The experiences there have been nice and have standards of their children and keep the school under control. It really is a school where the kids are still good.
Last point-yes it is only for a few hours a day in the afternoon. If he were home he would be taking a nap from 1pm-2:30 everyday. Then going to get his sister and then coming here.
So I think this time could be spent better else where. Yes at this point in time I do stay at home with him but if he did do this I would get a job-right now even an extra 150.00 a week would help big time.
I could continue substitue teaching, or I could just work on the house and have it all done when everyone gets home that afternoon and spend time with them instead of trying to get things done after school.
I just dont think it would harm him-it didnt Kathy-she is amazing in many subjects but I do think that if we didn't start her early due to the situations and troubles she has had in the past years that she wouldnt be where she is now.
I never think that it is harming a child when putting them in a position that can only better them in the long run.

The more I think about it the more I am considering preschool. Who knows?
Hollar later Amber

TO PRESCHOOL OR NOT TO PRESCHOOL-HELLLPPP

2009-08-09T01:23:00.002-05:00

Hello everyone!

Life here is flying by and I cannot believe summer- my favorite part of the year-is almost over.
This summer has been litterally one of the worst hands down.
Bryan losing his job, me not finding one, the kids not going anywhere, and it seems every where I go there is something else falling apart. I know that it will get better-I just want to know when and pray and continue to pray that it gets better soon.
OK SO several people have asked over the past months if Shawn will go to preschool this coming fall.
It is getting down to the wire and I am so confused and not sure what to do. First let me say that I have been in the preschool classroom in Hico and I love em. I think the people are nice and they truly teach kids and this is not just free babysitting. These kids are learning and enjoy it.
Now I have several close people that I love who are telling me two different things.
Some say "do not do preschool. It is horrible. You will regret it. You are giving your baby away.
He is to little. He needs his mom still."
Then I also get- "Hey he is going to love it. He is going to learn so much. He needs to start meeting people and learning to be social. He will miss it if he does not get to do it."
The differences in opinion go on. But school is two weeks away almost and I have to decide.

So first let me tell you Shawn is asking me "momma do I get to go to school yet?" He has had his backpack picked out and saved for almost 2 years. He talks about it all the time. Second I should say that it will only be 3 or 4 hours a day.
Now my mind thinks wow that is alot of time-I could get alot done. I could get a small job. I could do my school at the same time as him. I could continue in substitue teaching and see him.
I could star back to scrapbooking or something.
So many say that it harms them and it is neglecting my child and that he is not old enough.
Others tell me that it will do good.
Last thing I can tell you-the school district of Hico is amazing. The kids are clean and for the most part from what I have experienced are well behaved. The teachers are passionate and are always looking for ways to reach and inspire and motivate their students. They love it when parents are involved in the child's learning.
I for one maybe too involved but I would rather be safe than sorry. I am always asking questions and making sure that we dont miss something.

I JUST NEED SOME HELP HERE. PEOPLE PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK?

HOLLAR LATER AMBER

RANDOM SUMMER

2009-07-16T15:25:00.008-05:00

THIS POST IS JUST A PICTURES OF THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING THIS SUMMER.

ENJOY!

This is kathy with her birthday cake for her 8th birthday. I finally gave in and let Bryan get her that b-b gun she has been wanting. I told Bryan when she was born he would have to wait til she was 8. Guess what that happens way to fast.

The puppies are growing fast and I am giving them shots today and then they are gone. The boys are 75.00 and the girls are 100.00.So the tails are docked, the duclaws are gone they have thier first round of shots, and they are cute and very sweet and are use to cats and kids.

HOLLAR LATER AMBER

REAL FAMILY AND BIRTHDAY WISHES.

2009-07-06T21:14:00.003-05:00

But what I do know is summer is hot, and usually filled full with long days with sleeping in, cuddling watching cartoons for a bit then out to play while I get things done so I can hang with my kids later. Then we swim or fly kites or go to movies or get ice cream. Then it ends with nights in the yard chasing fireflies(love fireflies) laughing and then off to bath book then bed.

But something I often forget is FAMILY. As you all know Bryan lost his job but we are so blessed that we have not really gone without anything major yet. Everything keeps holding up and working and I keep thanking God for that one. Because literally I know he is the only one who can make it work the way it has lately.
But we had Kathy's birthday party on the 4th of July and it was great but what is perfect is that on the 3rd I asked her knowing our financial situation "If she could have anything in the world for her birthday what would it be?"
I was expecting a barbie, a pedicure, and tons of other stuff that I cannot get right now. But nope her answer was this " Mom-I just want my family and my friends and everyone to be happy."
I just hugged her and told her " I love you." But I had to go to my room and cry and pray.
Family is one of the most important things in my life-you only get one.
See in my eyes and my perfect world family would be like this: a dad that was home every single day by 5. A mom that only worked if she wanted as long as her babies came first. And everyone in that family knew how much they ment to one another and that they need one another to survive.
Bryan and I try to instill in Kathy that God will be there and if they do what God says and follow that book to the very best always then God will provide. Then we try to instill in them that we are all together in everything that we do. That the kids need one another forever-they are brother and sister and that is a very important job and they will need one another so they need to always put the other first and remember that at any moment they could lose one another.
Last we love one another even if we fail and we will work through that failure as a family but never leave the person who messed up to clean it up alone.
I have never been perfect but I know how I was raised-not saying it was bad-and I know how Bryan was raised-not saying it was bad. But we feel if we want a close family then we have to be the ones to start it.
That answer was the least I ever expected to hear from an 8 year old but I am so glad I did because somewhere in between this whole job losing situation and trying to stay positive I forgot that I am not alone and I have family.
Without my family there are days I do not think I could wake up another day. Bryan's hugs make me feel wanted. Shawn and Kathy remind me daily that I need to be better and that I am wanted and needed desperately. God helps me get those things done, have the strength to face another day and fight the urge that at times is deep with me to not wake up and face the world.
SO when you cannot anymore let God know and then look to those who God has given to you to help you hold on and survive.
Hollar later
Amber

Possibly a new start

2009-06-09T13:22:00.002-05:00

At this point we are not sure what this means. For us we are just praying and trying to keep our heads and spirits up. Friday afternoon Bryan was laid off of his job-he was told he could sit at home for 3-6 weeks and wait for them to call him to go to work or find a new job. Well we began looking for jobs-and so far only one has considered hiring Bryan and seems very promising-at the interview that is-but we have not heard from them yet.
It is strange the way all of this has unfolded and we know somewhere Bryan will find work we just hope that it will cover what we need and pay what we need or I will have to get a job which is something I will do if we have to but I sure do not want to leave the kids if I do not have too. Day care is so scarry but I am praying that will be taken care of.
Anyways wanted to give an up date.
Talk later
Amber

Puppies Baseball and Kids-just pictures

2009-06-04T10:31:00.009-05:00

First let me explain this picture- Remember that Lucky is part Boston Terrier and part Jack Russel Terrier.the day after Lilly gave birth-the kids woke up and found a jack russel terrier dog and a puppy outside that was boston terrier. The kids were so excited so they came to get me.

I went outside to check and it was a jack russel with a puppy that was identical to Lucky. Looks like Lucky has been "cheating on Lilly". Poor girl. LOL let me explain that too-Shawn asked where the puppies came from and I wasn't sure how to answer him so he answered himself- It's like you and dad-ya'll got married and had me and Kathy. So lucky and lilly got married and now she has to have babies. So below are all the puppies and kids in baseball and a few others..

Missing but tons of action

2009-06-03T21:38:00.002-05:00

It has been awhile but it has not been because we have nothing going on-it's just been busy since Shawn's birthday.
This is our first full week of summer. Summer is my favorite season and I live for every day that the sun is out and there are no plans and I can just sit in my backyard and let the sun burn my skin and watch kids play and nothing weigh on my mind.
Since the last post we have had end of the year awards, track meet, my diploma is actually getting here in 3 weeks, me being sick, Bryan getting poison ivy and using LIME to kill it.
We also have had the luck of having 8 boston terrier puppies from the now married "lucky and lilly".
I am looking for a job and keep praying one will show that will work with my kids so they do not have to be sacraficed.
The decision to go to churchcamp has still not been decided-we want to find or rent a camper so that me and the kids will have a place to stay and not impose on anyone. But it does not look like that will happen.
Oh yeah plus baseball season-Gosh Shawn just played his last game yesterday which was amazing-he has grown soo much in the past few months. The team I coach with some friends and also Kathy's team may have a chance to go to playoffs-CRAZY!
Did I mention that I actually now have a degree. LOL yea I know it's just an associates and I still have 2 years before the bachelors but hey a few years ago I never thought I would get this far.
Kathy turns 8 in a few weeks and I have no idea what to do for her bday. I think we are planning another 4th of July Bash-which is my all time favorite holiday.
The kids have been sleeping in, and spending all day outside in their swimsuits-in and out of the pool and sprinkler, and Shawn is turning dark and his hair is getting lighter and Kathy is too.
Vacation Bible school starts Monday and I am teaching Kathy's class.
I have not talked to anyone lately just hanging out here and trying to figure out our summer and when we can plan things. OH I officially become a CASA advocate on the 10th- I am being sworn in at the courthouse in Hamilton or the bank because the courthouse is under construction.
Today, since it rained last night, I took the kids to see the movie UP-I think every family in America should see it. IT really hits home and makes everyone think about life and it is good for the adults to see it too-super cute and clean and just makes you realize what is really important in a time of today. We also saw The Night at the Museum 2-it was cute and okay there was some adult humor but it was ok.
I think that about sums everything up. Miss everyone and hope all is well-Best wishes and hollar later and I will post pics in a few minutes of puppies, baseball, and kids.

Hollar later

Amber

KAT AND I AT THE ZOO

2009-05-11T11:54:00.009-05:00

I was able to make it to the zoo field trip with Kathy this year. It was fun and fast paced.

Here are a few pics of her and the zoo trip.

Hollar back later Amber

Happy Birthday Shawn

2009-05-07T21:36:00.009-05:00

Shawn's birthday party was a blast and it was a full day.

Full of baseball, cooking, eating way too much and ended with roasting marshmellows and making smores.

Shawn had a blast and a total of 39 people were able to come. The party started at 6:30 and did not end until 11:45 that night.

First we went to baseball games-I am coaching Kathy's team and Bryan is coaching Shawn's team. So we are the Hico Bling and the Hico Hunters. To be honest the other coaches thought of the names and Bryan and I just agreed but it fits both teams well.

After the games we came home and prepared for the day-we had no idea what we were getting into. We invited a total of 45 and 39 showed.

Shawn had friends from baseball, and church and we had family there too.

Here are a few pictures of the monkey themed party-

Here's to another great and fun filled year of life!

Hollar later Amber

Easter Fun

2009-04-19T22:13:00.009-05:00

Easter was fun and exhausting.

The kids have way too much junk and sweets. It was fun hanging out with family. It was the first time that my family has been together in over a year. Kathy and Shawn finally got to see the baby twins-Eli and Landon. The twins were perfect and precious. They are a constant reminder for me that miracles can still happen and to be thankful for everyday that you have. I didn't get to do as much on the ranch as I wanted but the weather was awful. It rained one night and the wind did not stop-but it was still fun.
Kathy got out on Thursday afternoon so I took pictures from then til the end

OH and one is of Kathy with a busted lip-she fell down at school-I felt so bad for her. She did not get to eat anything at her Easter party-it looked awful. The pictures really do not show you how big her lip got. She iced it forever and even fell asleep on top of the ice pack and it looked even bigger after icing it over night.

All is well now and we are back to a busy week. Bryan and daddy and Lance and my uncle went fishing so pictures from that will be up soon.

Hollar later

Amber

ALMOST THERE

2009-03-30T19:02:00.004-05:00

I have been working really hard on getting some things done before Shawn gets into school. One of those things is a degree-right now I am in two classes-International Business Relations and Organizational Theory and Behavior-well this coming Sunday at midnight-My International Business Relations class will be over and then in another week the Organizational one will be over and HOPEFULLY I WILL HAVE AN ASSOCIATES IN BUSIENSS. That is more than I ever thought I would get. Then in May I begin working on my Bachelors in Human Services and Management.

My Casa training is about to end this Thursday then I have interview process and I really hope I make it through because I really feel that this is taking me in the right direction of where I want to be. In the mean time I need a job-I have no idea what to do-Bryan's job has slowed down and it isn't quiet making is so I have to figure something out or he has to figure something out.

Here are a few more pictures of Kathy and Shawn that I took of them just messing around.

Hollar later Amber

MUDFIGHTS!

2009-03-28T09:51:00.009-05:00

It has been a while since my last post and our life has been busy.

Spring break was fun, and the break needs to be longer. We ran out of days to get it all done.

Since spring break, we have been running constantly.

First a weight update-ok my total lost now is at 45 pounds.Which is not bad and I am happy about but for the past 3weeks it seems that I have slacked off in exercise, eating, and I keep forgetting to take my pills. So I have got to get back on this-why do I start slacking when the weather is warm. It is annoying-so I have to try harder.

Kathy is now in acting class-just something to fill some time and open up something new for her to try. She really likes it and to be honest it really fits her. Shawn and her are about to begin baseball, and I am coaching Kathy's baseball with another parent. It will be fun and I am excited about that. Bryan is coaching Shawn's tee-ball team with a friend of his- so they are excited about that too. I am glad that Bryan is able to do that. I know it is something that he wanted to do.

I think we are about to stop tumbling for the summer but it may actually stop in like May because of how busy we get. Everyday of the week is something and sometimes two somethings.

I have also begun training to work with CASA-court appointed special advocate for children. I am so excited. I have not gone through the interview yet but I have to have training first, then interview. So I hope I get accepted. Also if I get accepted I would be able to have that as my internship when I began needing that in the next year or so.

It really is getting toward that time-in 2 weeks I will hopefully have my Associates in Business done and in May begin working on my Human Services and Management degree then I can get my license in counseling. I should be done when Kathy is like 14.

Shawn is also about to register for PRE-K. So excited and so is he. Also he has gone from training wheels to NO training wheels. He is growing up so fast. I just wish I could press pause.

Ok so I let the kids have a mud fight the other day it was hilarious and here are some pictures of that.

They made a mess-but they made a memory and it was a blast and guess what they wash!

Well hollar later,

Amber

LIFE-STAYING AFLOAT!

2009-03-17T22:36:00.000-05:00

Although it is spring break it has not been much of a break.

I am not use to having the kids here for spring break.They usually leave that Friday after school lets out and do not come back til the Sunday before school starts again-they are usually with Bryan's dad and Carol. This time they did get to go see my mom on Saturday and returned today but I did not get everything done that I needed too.
But Saturday and Sunday were the best days that Bryan and I have had together in a very long time.
We went to see the twins in Snyder and mom met me there and took our kids. We spent the weekend with Dustin, Amy and the sweetest boys. We watched the boys Sunday morning so that Dustin and Amy could go to church together. Bryan and I had a small bible study while we let the boys play on their blankets next to us and sang a few bible class songs to theem. It was refreshing to us and it helped us discuss among one another in a way that we do not normally get to talk. Amy thought we were doing her a favor but it really was the other way around.
I have to tell you Amy is a very good cook-she spoiled us and taught me a few things about food and cooking. We left not wanting to leave just because Bryan and I both knew that I cannot cook that good.
Life has been busy and frustrating and full. Sometimes I get so caught up in trying to stay afloat that I and Bryan too forget that it is okay to let God and our faith to just carry us and help us survive.
It has been a stressful few weeks. Baseball starts soon and possible acting classes for Kathy-like she need helps with drama.
Anyways I am tired and have laundry to do and clothes to put up so I have to get back to work.

Hollar Later

Amber

BASKETBALL OVER!

2009-03-01T20:09:00.007-06:00

WAY TO GO HOOPSTERS!

The kids did so well. They really improved and learned so much. The team won 5 games and lost 3. They even made it to the championship tournament. I am so proud of them. They played really hard and took 2nd place out of the tournament. I have tried adding video but it wont work so here are a few pictures of her and her team playing.

Kathy has grown alot during this time, and it was so much fun coaching her.

Next on the list is baseball, and I am trying to get to coach her in this and Shawn will begin tee-ball too. I am excited about seeing him play. He plays in the front yard with Bryan and Kat and he is really good-I can't imagine where that came from-lol. Bryan really is so funny listening to him play with the kids in the front yard. He is so passionate about it and forgets that they are little and just learning. I love it!

Hollar later

Amber

Bryan Q. Parker-my man

2009-02-23T20:49:00.002-06:00

1.He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
football, UFC, NCIS, When animals attack or something like that
2.You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?Ranch
3.What's one food he doesn't like?squash
4. You go out to eat. What drink does he order? sweet tea or dr. pepper
5.Where did he go to high school? Fort Stockton
6. What size shoe does he wear? 10 and half-11
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be? guns
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich? philly steak-cheddar, mustard and no onions
9. What would he eat every day if he could? sirloin steak mashed potatoes
10. What is his favorite cereal? Frosted Flakes
11. What would he never wear? a dress
12. What is his favorite sports team? that depends
13. Who did he vote for? McCain/Palin
14. Who is his best friend? he has a few
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do? ask questions
16. What is his heritage? english, indian and I am not sure if that is all or not lol
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake? German Chocolate
18. Did he play sports in high school? yes football, but he was best at baseball
19. What could he spend hours doing? watching UFC, working outside, hunting
20. What is one unique talent he has? lol-Bryan really doesnt have a major talent. He is funny and can make people laugh, escpecially me when I am mad.

BASKETBALL GAMES

2009-02-23T20:28:00.002-06:00

So I told you that I have been assistant coaching Kat's little dribblers team-it is absolutely a blast.
It is very eventful and full of laughs. When this team started they had trouble passing the ball, they had trouble shooting and let's not even talk about dribbling. Now we find outself at what was suppose to be at our last game tonight. The tournament that leads to the championship. We were playing tonight and did not expect to win-but we did 14-4.
So exciting. Now we are playing one more game the championship game. Kat is so excited,
The team has done well and it has been a blast coaching and watching the kids play and improve and gain confidence.
It has been fun watching them learn what a foul is and double dribbling is.
Hollar back later,

Amber Parker

Dead fish- new fish

2009-02-23T20:11:00.003-06:00

The kids have had these 2 beta fish for almost a year. Shawn loves the fish.
He talks to them, and they even let you pet them. So you can imagine the shock when I woke up one morning a while back and found it dead. So I swore Kat to secret and ran to the fish store and replaced it with another one that looked just like his, and replaced it before he ever noticed.
Kat has done well keeping it a secret but that was almost all lost this past Wednesday night.
I found it dead and we were all home. So I called Bryan back to the guest room to tell Bryan and see what he wanted me to do since the fish store was 20 minutes away and was closing in like 10 minutes. Bryan said we have to tell him because he tells it good night.
So we called him to the room that we were in and Bryan said "Hey buddy you know blue-your fish-and Shawn said "Yea he is a good fish." And Bryan said "I know buddy but he is dead." Shawn's face was priceless-he was all happy and ready to go to church, and the next he is on the floor pouting and crying. It was horrible. Then Bryan went to clean out the bowl and Shawn would not let him because he said that was Blue's home. So we waited until Shawn was asleep to clean it.
The next morning Shawn forgot and went to look in the bowl and remembered Blue was dead. I told him that we would go on Friday and get a new fish. That fixed everything.
Yes he still talks about Blue, and when we went to get the new fish he would not go look at the blue fish and said he wanted a yellow one this time because it wont die.
We are so in trouble if this one dies soon. Lol I am praying that this fish lives long. Shawn has not named this one yet-hopefully we will be more creative than naming it after the color of the fish.

hollar later,
Amber

MY SWEET VALENTINES!

2009-02-15T19:00:00.002-06:00

I had a great Valentines day.
First my in-laws came down and spen Friday night with us and left Saturday taking both of my kdis with them.
Then I left to see my baby nephews. I could not wait to see them. Bryan was going to go with me but he is sick. He cannot stop coughing and says his nose is running-he claims it is allergies, but I THINK it is the same junk that everyone in the world is getting.
So I drove to Snyder with the excitement bubbling and finally got there to hold and cuddle with my little guys, and see my sister in law and brother. Dustin was working hard on his house but I really enjoyed hanging out with Amy and the boys.
Amy cooked a very good pasta meal for lunch-soo good. The boys are growing up so fast and getting to be so strong. They were so sweet and I really got my baby fix, and just snuggled as much as the boys let me.
But sadly I had to tell the boys bye at 7 p.m. so I could go home to check on Bryan.
Whom has finally listened to me- and started taking medicine and slowly starting to feel better.
The kids are not back yet but I expect them soon. Bryan is resting and slowly getting rid of the cough and junk but I stayed home today and took care of him.
The kids do not have school tomorrow but Kat does have a basketball game. I am assistant coaching her team and it is hilarious. The team is doing great and winning 4 games in a row.
Well I guess that is all-will hollar back later.

Amber

SO LOVED CATS

2009-02-10T23:17:00.006-06:00

I finally can cross off another life dream. This past weekend my mom and I went to the musical hit-CATS.

If anyone knows me they know my love for cats. There is just something about this animal that I am drawn too. Anyways it was so much fun.

We went to the chocolate factory on the square-that place was awesome and I will go back soon. Amazing chocolate and great prices. We also ate at this place called Ferre and it was amazing. The view was beautiful and the sun was just setting-the view of the performance hall was amazing and it was peaceful.

We went into the performance hall and it was beautiful. It was all white with marble flooring and it was just so elegant and beautiful. The dome inside the hall was my favorite. It was so cool. Then the lights dimmed and it was time to start. I love that feeling that one gets right before the play begins-as the lights go out and everyone gets quiet and you can just hear a pin drop.

The play was awesome and everything I have been dreaming it would be. I have been dying to see this since I was like 6 years old and my dad just told me to when I was 18 I could see it-then it left broadway. So when I heard about it I immediately had to go.

I was in the second row from the stage it was awesome.

Here are a few pics from the night. This is part of the Bass Performance Hall from the front doors. At the front of the building are these two sculptures of trumpet playing 'angels'. It really is a sight to see. very pretty. I had a ton of fun and I hope mom did too.

Hollar later Amber

A little better and Another surprise!

2009-01-30T14:18:00.002-06:00

Ok so I am feeling somewhat better. I cannot believe on how painful this really is. I never dreamed it would be so horrid and I am getting to where I can walk around and not die from pain.
I had to go to my weight doctor today and to my surprise I lost 5 more pounds today. Okay so I ate more than normal the past month and I also have not had time to walk or run bleachers or ride the bike at the gym due to all the junk going on around here. But I am still doing okay. I cannot wait til I am back to my full work out capability-I miss it.
Kat has recovered from strep throat.
Shawn is recovering well from pleurisy. Hopefully we will survive this winter without breathing treatments. If we do it will be the first winter in his life that we haven't been on the breathing treatments.
I am in finals this week-almost done with the associates part. Time has flown by and I am hoping I have the strength to finish this up-it is so hard do this with everything else in life.

Well that is all I know-hollar later-Amber

OUCH THAT REALLY DID HURT!

2009-01-28T12:16:00.003-06:00

OK so I have not had a productive week or month.

Monday night was going good until after supper. I was feeling a pain that was completely undeniably horrid. This was worse than labor pains. It stayed painful for the entire night, and all of Tuesday. Finally I call the doctor and after talking on and off all day he told me to to the E.R. .
After one blown vein in the hand-and a catscan and some morphine they discover that I have fluid in my pelvis. The doctor said that I had ruptured ovarian cysts.
I was in shock-so not what I expected. I have never felt anything this bad.
It will hurt for a few more days until my body absorbs the fluid and I am on pain pills. I am glad that the bad weather has kept Bryan home so that he could be with Shawn and Kat.
This was something that never crossed my mind of what could be wrong. I was completely blown away.
So anyways-now I am at home- resting and so frustrated because I have so much to do.
Anyways getting tired-hollar back later!

Amber Parker

2008 IN PICTURES

2009-01-10T23:50:00.024-06:00

I love taking pictures it is the only way I can freeze that perfect moment-smile, outfit, or memory forever. Hope you enjoy!

Hope you enjoyed the pics. We enjoyed taking them. More in a few weeks.

Hollar later

Amber

CHILDHOOD DOESN'T LAST FOREVER!

2009-01-10T23:01:00.004-06:00

Children are great and have ways of making us see things in a different light.They are so innocent and have simple solutions. I often tell Kathy-"hey you better put that in a book so you don't forget."

When Bryan and I were houesparents we learned that children are smart and are taken for granted daily. They had all the answers to the world's biggest problems. At times we thought, we have got to write some of this stuff down.

For example- the other day with Kathy-we were discussing why she cannot ride the bus. I simply said "The bus isn't that great I rode the bus my entire school life except the years I was in Stephenville. There are kids on there that are gross and the bus driver will not watch you. Don't you like mom picking you up and asking you how you are and how was your day?" She takes a breath and answers me with "Well did you ever think that Hico Bus Systems are better than where ever you were when you rode the bus?"

YEP- I took a breath and paused and said "The answer is no. Next subject."

I was stunned.

My life is just now getting to normal. I am almost done with my associates in bussiness. I am losing weight finally. I am able to have friends and go do things. I finally have another job. No way could I do diapers right now or midnight feedings Everynight. We bought a house and are actually able to remodel it. We are enjoying the kids. I have always had an issue-yes the house needs to be cleaned-laundry needs to be done. That will be there during nap time, or bed time or before they wake. BUT they will not always want me to play with, or cuddle with, or to help wash their back. They do not last forever and I will not allow anything like dishes take away from doing a fashion show with barbies or making a cool Thomas the train track or watching the same snail for 30 minutes and listen to their voices and questions that come to their minds.

My man comes first-he will always be taken care of-he is fed, has clean clothes, clean bed, and does not want for anything-as long as he has snuff.

Then my children-I cannot allow myself at the end of the day to think-"I didn't do anything with them today."

I cannot get today back-that is one day that is gone from their childhood forever.

Movies-Benjamin Button-Curiosity Over!

2009-01-03T13:30:00.003-06:00

Last night I was able to sneak a way a bit a good friend and watch the Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
This movie is not one everyone will love but it is a very different and weird movie.
I loved it.
It makes one think about aging and growing old in a whole different light. Yes very sad, yes Brad Pitt ends up looking pretty again. I am not a fan of his, never really have been. But I think this movie is different for him. It is not his typical movie.
Although it is 3 hours long, it has alot of interesting points to ponder.
I thought that the love scences were very modest considering it is Hollywood and they have this skin thing going. The language was still there in some parts. But overall-an improvement in the movies.
Hollar later
Amber

Yep-8 years of Marriage!

2008-12-31T10:11:00.005-06:00

Last night was our 8th year wedding anniversary, and I must say it was not a good day but it ended well.
To be honest I thought we would stay home with the kids, eat supper, put them to bed and maybe just watch a movie together or something like that. Bryan-without me knowing-had planned to have a babysitter come and us go eat and to a movie-so sweet. Well the babysitter called and said she couldn't and would do it on New Year's but she got stuck in Fort Worth with a friend at a doctor's appointment. No big deal but he wanted to go out so I got a sitter, I made supper for the kids and we went to a movie. Well while I was getting dressed Bryan was outside
messing around outside with the new dog- a full blooded Schnauzer. She was 3 years old and had been abused so Bryan bought her and brought her home. He named her Lady. He was in love with this thing. Well the dog saw one of my cats and ran after it and ran into the street and it got hit by a car. Needless to say-Bryan was immeditely heartbroke. Bryan is very sensitive when it comes to things like that. So he really didn't feel like going out but I finally conveinced him and we went to the movies.
We were going to see Marley and Me and a friend of mine says "dont take him to see that-his dog just died." I asked why does that matter? She told me that Marley was a dog and it was about the dog. So instead we saw Bedtime Stories. It was a good movie. Bryan laughed some but not much. He just felt awful.
But I did get to do some of my own reflecting about the day and the years that we have past. Sometimes people get married and think "oh it's going to be lovely and 24-hours of bliss." Or at least that is what I thought.
But what I have learned is there is nothing harder than a marriage. It's something that only the two of you will fight for to save. It is the one person you can litterally get so angry with that your eyes burn but love at the same time. Marriage is based on full communication, full understanding, total patience, and empathy. Sympathy helps but mostly empathy. Bryan and I have survived some tough times but I can assure you what we have fought through has only prepared us for bigger battles up ahead.
We are at a place right now where we aren't in that lovey stage, yes we still hold hands and kiss goodnight-always-but we're okay if we don't want to be with each other. We can still have fun with friends and be away from one another and not be miserable. It's more like a best friend stage.
So here is to another year together-another year to grow, to get mad and get over it, to surprise one another, and most important to laugh. As long as you can still laugh at one another and with each other-your okay.
When you get mad don't push them away, pull them in closer-because no one else is going to want to hold you two together. Hold on til the storm calms.

Hollar later Amber

Christmas with Bryan and the kids

2008-12-30T16:49:00.010-06:00

Ok to be honest I love having Christmas with family but at the same time it is nice to be able not to have to pack up presents, clothes, food, kids, blankets and pillows, and no matter what you ALWAYS forget something-it's nice to just sit and let everyone come to you.
So we had the chance to actually be Santa and sit up and put all the toys out. We went to the movies that morning on Christmas Eve and saw the Tail of Desperdux(spelling)-absolutely awesome movie. I would recommend it to everyone.Then we went home to go to church and afterwards went home made cookies, took baths, read stories and finally the kids slept.Then Christmas morning came-here are pictures for that:

Shawn was ecstatic he got his John Deere Boots and Thomas the Train.
Kathy was proud she got her first bible and I am so happy she has actually read it almost everyday. The other day I had to make her put it up so she could get sleep.
Then Christmas night Clayton and Carol came and we had grilled steaks and all the fixins and then had Christmas with them-Bryan got the mitter saw he had been dying for.
By the time the left on the 27th we were christmased out.
So glad everyone had a nice holiday season.

Hollar later Amber

Concerts, Gingerbread cookies and presents!

2008-12-29T22:23:00.006-06:00

We went to the Christmas concert for Kathy-thought it was great.
Kathy looked very good-I thought she did very well. Personally I think she looked amazing and gorgeous!

Then we got ready for mom to come to have Christmas with us. She and Lance came and along with them came the stomache bug but even after Shawn used Lance's toothbrush-none of the kids or even me got it! Awesome-I know. Anyways the kids and mom made gingerbread men-here are those pics-

Then opening presents:
Mom bought these nerf guns and then it was on. I wish I had pictures of the war that went down that night. I think mom has all the pics of that.
Then mom and I snuck away to watch Twilight and I have to say it was good-I really didn't know what to expect but mom had read all the books so far so I thought well it's not bad if mom is reading but it is funny that mom is reading about vampires.
well there is more to come but later.
Hollar later
Amber

Fun with t-shirts

2008-12-29T20:51:00.006-06:00

This will be the first of several posts this evening. I have done awful this month on several different levels and topics.
First to begin was Thanksgiving in Fort Stockton-was a blast. The kids had so much fun playing outside and hanging with Uncle Brad and Aunt Lauren.
Then on the day that Bryan and Papa Clayton went hunting and took all 6 grandkids was great and peaceful. I did shopping-Carol, me and one of my all times bestest pals went shopping.Then we made the kids do christmas shirts with their hands and feet:

A blast! Hollar later Amber

WOW NEVER IMAGINED!

2008-12-15T08:50:00.002-06:00

OK-November was a rough month for me due to the holidays and my mother in laws awesome bananna pudding-way too much there.
When I went to Fort Stockton-I forgot my pills and I walked like once for the five days we were there.
I did work out and start back on the pills when we got back home. I have been working up at the school too so there were a few more days when I would forget to take them. But much to my surprise I still lost weight. I lost 5 more pounds and I am now below 200. I am at 196-so I have gone from 228 to 196 in just a few months. I am still working out a friend and I run bleachers on Mondays(I hope not today it is just way too cold!) and then I try to run one and walk one at the track like 5 times around. But Tuesday-Saturday is pretty much the bike, walking, taebo, and my exercise ball and weights. I can now ride the bike 2 and half miles in 6 minutes.
Christmas is almost here and my list of gifts to get is not dwidling fast enough or at least not as fast as the money does.
This week is busy. Tonight Kathy and Shawn have their tumbling Christmas party, then tomorrow is Kathy's school program, Wednesday kathy is going to get to read to her teacher from last year's class, then Thursday is party day at school. Friday is awards ceremony and out for break. I also eat lunch with her on Fridays and run all my errands.
It is getting pretty hard to figure out what to get everyone. I wish I could just do gift cards to something and call it good but you never know what people really want unless they just say I want this.
Kathy wants a motorcycle-not happen sister! Shawn wants a green b-b gun! That is a definete NO! That is what they asked Santa for but they have asked for everything under the sun from Bryan and I. I am all about educational toys this year. I want learning and playing together.
Well enough for now-hollar later!
Amber

COOL PRESCHOOL LEARNING SITES!

2008-12-05T13:34:00.002-06:00

Ok-I have been trying something totally different with Shawn than I did with Kathy. I wish I would have done this with her, maybe things would have been easier on her now.

I have begun compiling a list of great learning environments for kids that are 2 and up. I say preschool but if you did it with them-there are tons of great things you can find. So I just have listed them. I hope you enjoy them as much as we have. If you have any that are not on my list-leave it in comments so I can check em out!

1.http://www.starfall.com/n/level-k/index/play.htm?f
This site is awesome on learning ABC's and it really gets the child to interact with the computer.

2.http://pbskids.org/
This is great because it teaches along with the fun characters kids love like Clifford, Martha Speaks, oo and the new one Sid the Science Kid is so cool.

3.http://www.enchantedlearning.com/Home.html
This is a great site for learning if your kids really love animals1

4.http://funschool.kaboose.com/
This site has something for everyone-the gamer, the colorer, the interactive one! It is fun.

5.http://www.bigfishgames.com/download-games/genres/26/kids.html?afcode=af790ac51934&src=af790ac51934&gclid=CPuzycugqpcCFQObFQodUxrNig
GREAT FUN! Shawn loved this site because it had Dora, The Wonder pets, and more. This really has many different things and really is for fun.

6. http://www.kidport.com/GradeK/Math/MathIndex.htm
Awesome math source to help kindergarteners and up and learn math. I make Kathy do this at least 30 minutes every other day or so. She has brought up her math grade 6 points.

7. http://www.primarygames.com/math.htm
Another great math site.

8. http://www.studyisland.com/
This one is great for like 3rd grade and up-the school here uses it and you can go home and let them play it under their names at school. You can see their progress and the teachers can see what they do at home too!

Those are a few just to start with! Let me know what you think or if you find one that isn't listed here and let me check it out!

6.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL FROM PARKERS-THIS IS MY CHRISTMAS CARD!

2008-12-05T13:16:00.004-06:00

(picture is a polaroid sorry it's not better)
We had a wonderful time Thursday night! Stephenville had a meet Santa and his reindeer in the park and it was awesome. There was fake snow tha the kids rolled in and fought in and threw at one another. They made christmas ornaments, wrote Santa a letter, had hot chocolate and cookies. Then we met Vixen the reindeer-I have a picture but cannot get it to scan very good. Then we went to meet Santa. Then we went on a horse carriage ride up and down the square and around town. It really made it feel Special and like Christmas!
Life has been kind to us this year. There were definately some times that we could have done without but luckily we survived and so did our many loved ones.
We have alot to be thankful for in our family. Bryan has a great job that thankfully has not slowed down. Hopefully it continues that way after the first of the year.
The kids have not been sick yet or not like they were last year. I am not stressing to much over school and life. Things are calm for the most part. I do hope it remains that way.
This year was very eventful and fun.
We have new twin cousins-Bryan and I finally have great nephews to spoil and love. We cannot wait for the fun to watch Eli and Landon get into and to see the fun their parents have-its always great to be the one to spoil. It was a bit tough getting them here but their parents did an amazing job.
We have a new home that we are blessed to be able to remodel and call home. That is a really great feeling knowing you do not have to pack up in move-it is yours.
For the most part-the past couple of months have been calm and peaceful-unlike parts of the rest of the world.
Shawn had his first competition in tumbling and did awesome and Kathy finally landed a beautiful cartwheel in her meet.
The kids ar growing and feeling the christmas spirit and ready for Santa to come.
Bryan and I celebrate our 8th year of marriage in a few weeks. It has not been easy but marriage is worth fighting for. I love all lovestories but ours is my favorite. It truly is magical.

Well Merry Christmas-Happy Holidays-
Bryan Amber Kathy Shawn Parker

Flashbacks are scary-but try FLASHFORWARD

2008-11-25T10:55:00.003-06:00

It is neat to see how fast things change. But from this side-it is scary. When you get to be past 25, things look different-or they do to me. I have loved reading all of the flashbacks you have posted.
But take a different look-what do you see in 5 minutes, 5 months, 5 years, 10 years.
I know for me if I could I would keep my children safe and in my house and in my arms for the rest of my life because the world is so harsh and cruel.
In 5 minutes I will probably decide to actually get dressed and run errands. I do not want to but I have to. In 5 months, we will begin the birthdays-Bryan is March, Shawn in April, and Kathy in June. So we will be planning parties and enjoying hopefully much warmer weather and spring will be here. In 5 years- I will hopefully be doing my counseling thing, writing several chidlren's books on dealing with several topics that children will face. Hopefully one child can read my book and know that the mistakes I made can be prevented and the key to that prevention is in her hand now she just has to use it. Kathy will be 12 years old. She will be strongwilled, independednt and think she knows it all. Shawn will be 8 years old and way psat the time of rocking and fun afternoons playing all day. He will be curious but too old to kiss me goodnight or goodbye.
Bryan and I will have been married for 13 years. WOW! That is mind-blowing.
But in 10 years-I hope to have my own crisis center for Children only. I want to have an unbelievable relationship with my children. Kathy will be 17-and I will be there the entire time holding her hand and making sure she understands that there are consequences. I will catch her if she falls but she will have to learn to pick herself up. She will be getting ready to leave me and embarq on a journey that I will not be a part of daily. She will be busy running around and stirring up trouble. Shawn-my little man-he will be 13. I will become dorky mom again, and he will discover that there are tons of princesses out there trying to steal him from me. And I will have to sit back and watch him and let his daddy take over the man teaching.
Bryan and I will have been married 18 years. Who knows what that can do to a marriage. But what I hope is that we are best friends and cannot go to bed without saying good night and a kiss. I hope we are more patient with one another, and understanding. I hope that we are more sympathetic to one another's needs. I hope we are still walking around holding hands and showing our children that marriage is great and fun and is forever. There is no out except death and not by murder either lol. I hope to show them how wonderful it is to always have your friend right there.

Go ahead try to picture it-it will scare you more and you will want to go have a flashback and press pause.

Hollar later
Amber

T00 MUCH AT ONCE!

2008-11-24T23:35:00.009-06:00

WOW- it has been a very fast paced couple of weeks.

Let me say since the last time I posted it has been busy. I went to the doctor and discovered I lost 9 more pounds. I am really feeling it and it is really getting harder to lose. But I am working and giving it my all. Gosh I have almost lost 28 pounds total in a little less than 3 months.

Next, we have almost ripped all carpet out of our home. I hate carpet. We have redone the living room, hallway, one bathroom and refloored Kathy's bedroom also. Now remember I am ADD-I never finish a project before beginning a new one. SO it's been crazy. But it is finanlly coming together.

Now these are just a few for now, and as I said the rooms are not done but coming along rather nicely I think.

Then there are the holidays, I am looking forward to some time just hanging out with my kids and breathing. But of course I will still be doing my school work-which I am just almost to the point of thinking I was nuts for doing this. But I know in the end it will be worth it-but still-I am tired.

Shawn is lovely and growing everyday. The things he says really just blow my mind. He has this new thing when he gets into a story ever like 3rd or 4th word is "Oh and". I just love it. Kathy is all drama-love listening to her talk. She sounds like she has life all figured out-oh to be 7 again. She brought home her report card on Friday-she has brought up every grade at least 5 points. I am so proud of her and how hard she is working. She is so smart, it just is a little harder for her than for others.

Today I went back into work. It was my first time in a professional setting in like 2 and half years. I felt so out of place. I substitute taught 4th graders today. WOW-I haven't been around kids like that age since we left Foster's Home. It made me realize just how much I miss my kids and wonder about them and pray that they are safe out there in that big scary world. I pray that they are using what they were taught, and that they listened to what I said and learned from my mistakes. I pray that they are making good of their mess and making it their own message.

Ok we also had the kids tumbling competition this past weekend. Momma came down and gave me the best picture and clock for our home. I love it and it looks great. The kids did fantastic this weekend.
Shawn competed for the first time and brought home two silver medals! He was so cute and little. Kathy finally landed that First Place Gold in floor. She landed her cartwheel and everything looked fantatstic. She was so ecstatic-pictures of that next time. Mom and I did some christmas shopping. I really am going very simple this year with my kids. It is not about money and presents and all that. Sure it is nice, but come on-I also found the toys that I cannot wait to give my precious nephews. Mom and I had a great visit. I wish she could have stayed longer.

It was a great weekend. Now Shawn is gone and we will see him again on Wednesday. He went with my mom to Bryan's dads. My mother bought Shawn popcorn to eat for a snack on the way home. Shawn told her "Nana-Im not suppose to eat in your truck. If my momma asks if I ate in your truck, I not gonna say a word." My mom said " I think that is a good idea."

That little stinker. He really is a good kid-just curious. He just has to know how things work.

Well other than that I had a small accident last week while working out. I was doing the laterall pull and asked a friend to add more weight to it and to hand me the bar when she was done. She agreed and when she went to remove the pin-the bar fell from the pulley and hit me on the front part of my head. It knocked me out for a minute. I had a small-slight concussion from it. I do feel better now but it was rough.

Well that is all for now, keep you posted-hollar next time and

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO YOU ALL!

Amber

Next Appointment

2008-11-11T17:40:00.003-06:00

Ok so I am now down to 206.
I feel so frustrated. I have my next appointment this Friday and I have lost some but I am so close to one of my goals I am trying to push myself to lose those 6 pounds by Friday-any fast weightloss ideas let me have em!
The past like 2weeks have been the hardest for me. I do not like this weather change and time change. Usually I look forward to this time change but for some reason it is not the same as in the past.
The halloween candy has got to go. The bite size 3 musketeers, snickers, and twix bars are the culprits and I am not happy about it. I also went out with some friends and we all decided we were going to have something against our diet that night-well I shared the molten lava chocolate ice cream thing from chillis with everyone. That was big trouble. I have not had chocolate in forever and it was ooh soo good.
I did work out double the night before and since then.
I tried on this shirt-kind of the shirt I am gaging my weight loss in-I bought it in August. I said I will wear this in like 4 months. It is a juniors extra large. Today I put it on-it was the very first time I could actually wear it and be comfortable in it. I still feel I need more room in the front but the arms and the chest and sides it fits great. Just this dang tummy.
Here is a picture of me in it.

Well I have to get back to life and have a list a mile long so hollar later.
Amber

Complaints-sorry

2008-11-06T08:40:00.002-06:00

Ok well I have to say that life really is interesting.
I have recieved several complaints considering my last post so let me see if I can clear up the confusion.

First of all-I am a Christian and I am a strong believer in the bible and what it says. I do not make my own interpreations-I read it then follow it to the very best of my ability. Yes I fail and yes I mess up. I am sorry. But I do ask for forgiveness and try try again.
Second-this country was built on the values and morals of Christianity. And if you choose to be aitheistic then that is fine-go ahead but leave the ones alone that believe in God and believe that certain things are just wrong.
Third-I do not pass judgement. I love all people-I just hate the sin. Yes some of God's creations are better off stufted but it is not my place to judge just state how I feel and where that feeling stems from.
I think I have the right to state my opinion just as everyone else in the world. I am not saying I am better than no one and I have never believed that I am better than anyone. And I never will.
But if those who disagree with where I stand on issues are hurt I am sorry but I do not let your views cause me pain and hurt me. It is opinion.
Sorry about the offense but I do feel the way I feel and I will let you feel what you feel.
I'm tired of having your views shoved down my throat but hardly ever say anything about it because I cannot change the way one feels. So I agree to disagree and let it be.

Hollar Amber

Picking the RIGHT leader!

2008-11-04T11:58:00.003-06:00

Today I have spent my time with Shawn and silently praying and thinking about our country that we live in.
I look at how proud we should be of it and how we really have never had it hard like some countries.
Then I think of those who have died for our freedom and wonder what they would think of today as everyone is electing a new leader. This election is by far the scariest one I have seen.
One reason is because it is no longer just about the issues of money, healthcare, abortion and things like that.
It is about soo much more like race, sexism, age prejudice, not being a Christian, not being an American, having ties with the religion that killed so many of our own innocent people not long ago.
I am proud that America has come so far as to even let a man that is not white to even think of running. I am proud that it is allowing a woman on the ballot and giving her a chance to show that we are being given a chance.
I am not proud that we are turning our backs on our values that this country was built on. How can we even think about letting a person into our office to lead us that does not have a clue about what the Bible says. He was raised in a religion that hates and is raised to kill those who do not believe the way they do. We have seen people killed for the religion that he was raised in. Ok so he claims he is not at all that way-whatever! The man has friends that have claimed to be ashamed of being in this country. Our fallen soldiers are crying today that we as a country would stand for that.
No I am not saying that everything John McCain has said is wonderful either but at least I know he has always been proud of America and was not raised to hate America and it's values. I know that this race has not been about issues. I say he went to war for us, he knows what being American is worth and will defend that even to the death-he proved that by surviving what he has.
It has been about black vs white. Man vs woman. Old vs young.
Ok here is what I do know-any person running should always be proud of this country no matter what. Any person running should have at least been inlisted and knows what it's like to sacrifice your life for the country. Any person running should rise above and not do personal attacks. Any person running needs to take a look back-and go back to what this country was built on-The Bible.
I am tired of hearing the talk: He is too old. He is unqualified. She is stupid. She can't do the job because it will neglect the handicapped child in her life. If anything that child will get the best care it will ever have and it could start shedding light one what mental retardation and downsyndrome is.
Pray that the right man who is elected will first pray to God and let God have control over the country again. And not try to take him off money, pledge of allegiance. Pray that we become a country that once again looks down on abortion, divorce, homosexuality and allows us control over our homes and children.
Ok I'm done ranting and I am sorry but I do not hate either canidate and do not mean to offend anyone but it is my freedom of speech. I just hope that I still have that tonight.

Hollar later!
Amber

I had to add these! They are the best!

2008-10-30T18:05:00.015-05:00

This is Shawn as Raggedy Andy This is Kathy as Raggedy Ann These two are very hard to seperate. I hope they stay this close forever.

Call me prejudice but I just think he is the cutest thing. Oh and so is she-just precious!

This is my family. The ones that have saved me from me! This man is amazing and does the most amazing things for me. Anytime I am down-I just look at these two smiles and it really turns it around. Today was fun. I couldnt help it- I got camera happy and took some great shots of the kids in full costume-face painted and all.

It was so much fun watching them together today. Today is a day I will forever hold in my heart and never forget!

I think they are the best rag dolls ever.

Hollar later

HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO ALL!

FUN WEEKEND AHEAD!

2008-10-29T10:29:00.004-05:00

Ok here is a pound update. When I went to the doctor the other day I was at 214. Last night and this morning when I weighed I was at 208. We are almost at my first goal weight. YIPEE!

Hey this weekend I am sure is going to be a blast.

At least a major improvement from last weekend. For it is time for tricking and mostly treating. YEA! But I think my kids will be the best dressed on our street. Their faces will be made up like the actual ragdoll.

I have been begging Kathy to do this since Shawn was 1. I told her this is the last time I will ask if she will do it-I will let her pick what she wants to be from now on. She finally agreed. Better pictures will be taken this weekend.

Shawn loves his and I think he just looks perfect.

Kathy's is precious on her. It is such a cute outfit and she actually is having fun dressing up as Raggedy Ann.

Well I just thought I would post this. Probably no more thoughts till next week.

Hollar later

Amber

I hate Monday

2008-10-27T10:54:00.002-05:00

I know that many of you do. I mean who wants the weekend to stop and then have to get back to work or school or back to the week routine. Mondays are the worst for me.
I find that it is the day that I want to sleep in on, or just sleep through.
When that alarm goes off at 6:30-I tend to hit snooze more on this day than anyother day of the week. I usually tend to run late to everything on this day too. I do not understand it.
I hate scheduling anything for monday-no doctor appointments no play dates.
I sit around til about noon then we eat and I put Shawn down for a nap then I begin cleaning up things like the kids rooms washing sheets and cleaning bathrooms and vaccuming everything then cleaning the kitchen. Then I look up its time to get Kathy and rush home do snacks, get changed hop in the car to be at tumbling that starts at 5pm and we get home about 7:15 and have supper. Then bath -book -bed! Then I usually go walk and do other exercises outside or inside which ever one that works.
It's just Monday mornings that I try to prolong. My favorite thing is to come home from dropping Kathy off, sit in the recliner in my sweats and cuddle up with Shawn and watch cartoons like sesame street and curious george and so on. By the time Handy Manny rolls around I am ready.
Shawn really is awesome and helps me get going but he really just cuddles and he just talks to me and as long as I answer I dont have to open my eyes.
Yep well I better get ontop of today's schedule but I hate MONDAYS!
Talk soon
Amber

LEARNING THROUGH MY CHILDREN

2008-10-23T11:50:00.005-05:00

Since I have had kids there are so many things I learn daily and I kick myself for not knowing before hand. So I just wanted to shed some light.
I was the lucky one-I was shown from the beginning the work and life of Jesus and the power one holds in being a believer and a Christian. I am not going to give up it just angers me at times.
I was the lucky one that got the good home and the second chance.
It stinks that when you are a child that you are not capapble of realizing how good you had it. That it takes growing up and then hearing for the rest of your life how horrible you were as a kid and how you messed up everything. I cant erase the past but I can guarentee that I am different and have learned great lessons since and I am sorry for the past. I am very sorry.
I wish that there were a way to press rewind and watch somethings as an adult and then go in and edit and fix the problems so everyone's life would be perfect and up to that person's standards.
I often look at my children and think "I could never give you up." You couldn't pay me enough of anything to walk away and let someone else raise them. Let someone else hear them laugh. Let someone else wipe tears away and make the hurt stop. I understand( DO NOT ACCEPT) why
kids are given away or abandoned. But you have no right to even have the privelege to have a child if you are not willing to give up the selfish crap and turn to your child and do all you can that is right by them. NO EXCUSE! They are worth more than that.
I am grateful more and more everyday for my second chance. I wish I could have proved that as a kid. I just wish others had been given my second chance to understand where I come from and why I feel the way I feel.
Ok sorry didn't mean to rant but sometimes you just have to scream!

YEA! 14 down and many more to go!

2008-10-21T13:22:00.002-05:00

So I went to the doctor on Friday. I should have posted sooner but it's been busy on the homefront. Since I have begun this a month ago as of Friday I have lost 14 pounds but since Friday afternoon I have lost 2 more.
I also ripped my guest bathroom apart. Put wood trim and painted it and got it all going. It has been busy. We also have ripped up the carpet in hallway and layed wood down. Eventually I want all carpet gone! And all animals. This is driving me crazy. I finally bought a big pin to lock the dogs up in. We just have to fix it to where they are seperated. I feel bad because I love having them around soo much but really they can still come in just not all day and every day. It will be a very hard transitions for my pampered bostons but they will survive.
Kat is well. She is having a few learning disabilities that are very frustrating to me. You know when you have kids you hope that the kids didn't get any of the dumb genes from you or bad habits. Well Kat was not so lucky she inherited my dyslexia. Except hers is a bit more extreme. She is smart though and can do this. It's just really hard to watch as a parent knowing that you went through it and it wasn't so fun and now you know the road that is a head of her and it's a bit heartbreaking. But it will be okay. Life with dyslexia isn't all that bad. Sure we turn left instead of right or write a few letters backwards-it keeps life interesting. LOL This is me trying to keep it positive so go with me.
I remember growing up my cousin sang this song "dyslexia" and it fit me perfect. I felt like someone finally understood me. I need him to sing that for her maybe it will make her understand that she isn't the only one.
Shawn is home now and is getting back into routine. He is exhausted and has learned so much while he was gone. He has told me alot of good stories like about the chickens flogging him.
Well let you know more when I know more. Take Care
Hollar later
Amber

weighing in

2008-10-16T23:33:00.002-05:00

So tomorrow is a big day. It will be my next check up with the doctor that I have been seeing so that I can see how much weight-exactly I have lost. I hope that it is somewhere around my goal. I have really worked so hard for this. I do not take failure very well. It is something I have to work on.
Most people it makes them work harder-me it knocks me down and makes me want to eat more. And that is dangerous.
I am a very emotional eater. I have not had anything but a three musketeers bar. They say it is the best chocolate bar for dieters-if that is possible. But I havent had my loaded milkshake with cherries and m&ms and tons of chocolate in forever. I do often crave them-that and sweet tea. I have had several children's cups but not too many.
I have made major improvements in my physical shape as far as a working out. I am very proud of that. I am running again a few straits on the track and I have missed that time with running.
Other than that, I am well. My son returned to me after being gone with grandparents for 9 days.
He had so much fun but I am glad that he is finally home. I do not feel normal when any of my children are gone.
I am enjoying seeing pictures of my two precious nephews who are making wonderful progress and have 2 wonderful parents waiting for them with lots of loving grandparents waiting to watch them grow up.
There was alot of fun in this week though with Shawn being gone. It gave me and Kathy some much needed bonding time and girl talk. I was able to break down some barriers and let her know that even though I am mom I can still have fun.
Well I have to get some sleep-so hollar later Amber Parker

New Firsts

2008-10-12T14:32:00.002-05:00

So I have the most amazing and precious nephews. We could not be more blessed. When you look at these angels, you know that God has been watching them and protected them. Their mother did an awesome job getting them here.
I hear people talk about how small babies are and all that but until you witness it for yourself-you really do not get the full picture.
The tiny ears, and fingers. It truly is remarkable.
We cannot wait for the firsts to begin and to hear about it and laugh about all the things these two guys will do in years to come.
While I was there with family this past week, I stayed on my schedule and did not eat things I should not. That is a real test. If you have ever eaten out wit my dad then you know what I mean. You have to have the full course mean. But I restrained and did well. While I was gone I did not weigh. Before I left I did though and was at 212. But when I returned before bed that night I weighed and it was 210.5.
My doctor's appointment is on Friday and I am a bit nervous to see what his scales reveal. But I know I have lost some I can feel it in my clothes.
House remodeling is in full swing and a bit annoying. Bryan and I can't seem to hardly agree on anything in this area. When we do find something we both like it's either impossible or to expensive! GRRR!
Well I will keep trying and hope to make more progress through the week.
Hollar later
Amber

NEW LIFE-TIME TO REDECORATE

2008-10-07T14:01:00.002-05:00

As many of you know I have been working really hard to
change many things.
Some say I am changing too much at once and it is overwhelming and hard to get use to. But so far I am happy in the direction in my life. For the first time in a long time, I am not just a wife or a mom. I am finally getting me and understanding how to control me and get me out there.
I love the colors brown, blue and tan. I love a lot of different colors but when I saw this I had to have it. This is my new bed. I am redoing my entire bedroom around this color scheme. My kids are no long allowed to just go into my room. Children wakened by nightmares-occasionally will still sneak in-but that won't last forever. I have NO DOGS ALLOWED.
This is my place to breathe and unwind and write or sleep or just sit.
I am doing well for the most part. I am really revisiting a lot of my past hobbies that I am beginning to have time for again. Things are finding their places and hopefully doors will open up to me soon in other areas.
The kids are growing fast and everything is either loud and dramatic, fast and happy, or everyone is asleep(my favorite time!)
I am also getting ready to destroy Shawn's bathroom and put new sink, new lighting, painting and just really making it what I want. That feels good-doing what you want to whatever part of the house you want and having not to wait and ask for permission from a landlord.
Then we are ripping up carpet slowly-room by room. I am sick of it. The floor I want really will be nicer and cleaner and easier.
I just really am at a part of my life where I want it organized and neat and simple. Finally it took me 25 years but I am here. Better late than never. In high school I was organized-my room everything had a place. But over the years I have had bigger fish to fry.
Bryan is well. He is working and trying to enjoy his new schedule of coming home earlier and hanging out with the kids. It is nice to see him happy again.
Well that is all. I will post more pics when changes are made. And coming soon a monthly picture of me before life change and after and even more after hopefully where I look a lot smaller.

Talk later
Amber

Great Progress being made

2008-09-30T11:52:00.002-05:00

WOW!
I am so impressed on how well I am doing on this whole new life thing. I forgot how much fun it was to run and exercise. I use to love it so much and now I remember why.
So I really do not see much physical progress but I do see a difference in my clothing. A big difference and that is exciting. I really have no clue how much I have lost I go back to the doctor in 2 weeks. On my scales it says like 13 pounds. But I doubt it is that much.
Friends say they can tell in several different places like my face. I sure hope so. Something better be slimming down.
Like I said I can really tell in clothing. I was going to wear one of my favorite blouses to church on Sunday and Bryan told me not to wear it again because it was to baggy and it looked to big. So that was exciting.
I will keep you posted as time passes on.
I hope to at least lose 8 before the two weeks is up. That is 4 a week-not too much.
Hollar back soon! Amber

FORGIVEN BUT NOT FORGOTTEN!

2008-09-30T10:48:00.002-05:00

In today's world there is so many things that are just wrong. The way we treat one another, the way we talk to one another. The way we want to remove morals and conscience from our every day lives so that our choices do not bother us.
The problem is that all choices do matter and they are all important.
People change and we are suppose to forgive them. Forgiving is an easy thing in my eyes but forgetting I think is there for our protection.
There are dangerous people in this world if we forgot what all the horrible things one did then how could we protect ourselves or even our own children.
When one becomes a victim-not by choice-you cannot expect them to be okay with someone 1 year, 3 years or even 8 years later. The damages is done. That person's personality and life goals and dreams are destroyed. That person will not ever be the same in any way.
SO when that person grows up to be a mother. She will remember and know what led up to certain things and make sure that those things will not enter her children and their lives. Some call her over protective some say she is crazy. But in her heart only she knows the danger that can be ahead and how to prevent them.
Don't judge until you know where she has been and you might learn something about yourself or those around you. Things you may not want to believe but have to. Obviously something happened to form this person to be who they are. Obviously listening may be the only way to see the truth. because you never know what is really in front of you.
When that person goes through everything to keep her and her loved ones protected don't judge her or say she is lying.
Were you there-were you watching quietly while it all happened? Were you a tool that would have made all the difference to this person had you stood up and said "wait-you can't do that!"
Standing there saying nothing makes you as guilty as the one who committed the crime. Silence is a quiet way of saying "It's okay-I accept it."

NEW LIFE UNDERWAY!

2008-09-13T16:49:00.002-05:00

Hey okay- so i have been on this new "way of life" thing, and it has been odd.
For the past 4 months I have been walking for like 30 minutes a day with friends. And trying different things. Nothing has been working. So I am trying it differently this time-with a doctor's help and guidance.I saw the doctor on Tuesday and began it Wednesday morning.
So today is Saturday-it has been raining and windy all day long. Today is hard. My favorite thing on days like this is load up with blankets and movies and tons of ice cream and cookies.
I have been doing this for 4 days. It has been really hard.
I have taken the pills and I am back at that nervous feeling. I hope to be use to it by next week. I have also upped my walking from just in the morning to nights also. I am doing a walking path in the mornings and the track at night. I have cut all my servings by more than half and no seconds. I have upped my water intake to 8 bottles a day. I have had (the kid's plastic cups) 2 half-cups of tea all week long.

So there is where I stand for now and hope to see a difference in clothes at least in a week or two.
Hollar more later-Amber

NEW LIFE WAY-WISH ME LUCK!

2008-09-10T13:52:00.002-05:00

Ok so I have been married now for almost a full 8 years. I have been a mom for 7 of those years.

Being a mom is great and I love the job. My children are definitely one of my heroes. But as a stay at home mom, I think I am able to say that we tend to forget there is a whole big world out there waiting for mothers to conquer. It is scary after staying for 7 years to go and even try getting a job or making friends. It is a new adventure.
Another thing that we tend to do as stay at home moms is gain weight. We eat what the kids do, play watch television with them. Yea and clean up and all of that good stuff. But what happens when the husband comes home and you and him want to go eat alone. YIKES you go to the closet and it's either t-shirts with cartoon characters on them( I have a ton of Eeyore) and sweats and wind pants or Capri pants. So we try to dress like an adult and then we look in the mirror and we do not recognize ourselves. You have put on weight. You have lost touch with fashion. Well guys I am there and I have to get past this. since high school.
when I met Bryan. I was 17 years old. I was exactly 103. Ran daily, ate hardly anything(except my chocolate), diet cokes and water were all I drank. And I showered at least 3 times a day.
I am now way over that. I am now two of me. And then some! YUCK! There are several times I have tried dieting or walking and I just get tired of it or something comes up. But not this time. Join me in learning to live better for my kids and help encourage me to loose at least 2-4 pounds a week over the next 10 weeks. If at 10 weeks I have done something great then I will attempt another 10 weeks. If not then I will try something new.

Today is a new way of life. No white bread, no chocolate, no sweet tea, no ketchup, no greasy hamburgers, no pizza, no ice cream. All of it is gone.

Wish me luck!

SUMMER SETTING FAST

2008-07-23T00:39:00.002-05:00

I am amazed at how fast this summer has passed by.
I am three weeks away from finishing my college math classes. YIPEE no more math or so we hope anyway.
Kathy is gone again-this time with my mom. I think she is getting tired though because when I talk to her she mentions coming home or how long til I come home.
Shawn really misses her when she is gone. I really hate splitting them up-it makes them both sad. You don't realize how much they rely on one another til they are separated.
Bryan is working hard and cant wait til we go to the lake in August so he can just breathe. I second that.
We put the pool up and Shawn absolutely loves it. He is like a fish.
Well that is all for now and let you know more late.
Amber

JULY 4TH FUN

2008-07-10T16:47:00.002-05:00

Ok so we had Kathy's birthday party on the 4th of July. I have to say that this was the most fun I have had on the 4th in a really long time. My mom and dad and aunt and uncler went with us to watch a firework display in Stephenville along with a few church friends.
It was nice to hear my family having fun. The kids played on blankets as my mom and dad really liked what they saw. That is what I like-just watching them have fun together.
It is really strange now but here in the past year I am seeing things from a different perspective. There were times when it didnt bother me when my parents left or I left them but its beginning to change-now I want them to stay for several days and just go doing things. The kids love them and I want them to hang out and have fun with them as much as they can.
Other than that-summer is in full swing. The next few weeks are going to be packed full of water and zoo trips and park trips and maybe a few picnics. We have several waterparks around us that are cheap and little people friendly.
Plus more family time-as much as possible. I dont know if I will go home or not but I do hope they come here again before summer is up. I am thinkin of having an end of summer bash at my house and just having all of the family over-IDK NOT SURE yet.

School is hard on me right now. I thought I would enjoy philosophy but I am really beginning to hate it and rather take a math class. My brain hurts.
Well that is all for now. Hollar back soon.

The Parkes

2008-06-27T10:16:00.003-05:00

So these past few weeks have been fast paced. I went home to go to churchcamp. Let me just say that camp is hard now that I have gotten use to having constant access to things when ever Iwant. I hate no cellphone service. And no internet is not any easier. Not to mention no hot water, or the closest starbucks is almost a full 2 hours away.
My daughter is now 7 years old. I am so not okay here. She is growing up way to fast and it is hard for me to let go and watch her fall and make mistakes. I know she has too, but-I dont like it. One thing is for sure, Kathy and Shawn are still very close and love to be together. When they are not together, Shawn misses her. He asks for her. I hope they remain close.
Right now-they are gone until the 4th of July. I have talked daily with them and they are having so much fun. Shawn is growing up and talking like a grown up. I do miss them but I know how important it is for them to both be with grandparents. They are very important in children's lives and help make sure they have fun and implant little things.
SO that is aboutall here, nothin new. Things are starting to calm down hope it stays that way.

Amber

Laugh out loud

2008-05-29T16:22:00.002-05:00

This school year has been interesting but soo glad that is over. Today was a good day for Kat.
She was given the best, most contagious laugh award. I know that it isnt like the "A" honor roll award but this is much better to me-I now know that others are affected by her incredible and hilarious laugh and smile.
If you ever get to hear it-cherish it as I do I hope you will anyway.
She also did get the A&B Honor roll, and a reading award. I am soo proud of all that she has accomplished and she has grown soo much.
And Shawn has finally learned ALL his ABC's now we just have to get the letters memorized and write his name.

Now here's to the summer. I hope that it is filled with lots of laughs, popsicle grins, late nights of fireflies and cuddling.

Amber

Family is always a precious jewel

2008-05-05T19:37:00.002-05:00

Sometimes there are things that happen that make you take a huge step back from the whole picture. Unfortunately, this past month has been full of those kinds of times.

We have had several accidents occur, several deaths happen. It never fails the people that these times bring together never ceases to amaze me. Let us never forget that our family is a huge importance and we should let one another know how much they mean to one another. But we do not have to wait til things like things like this happen.

Tell them you love them-big and small.

Amber

2008-04-30T15:56:00.004-05:00

Once agian we are shown how sweet and precious life really is.
We lost a cousin this week in a car accident and I am still asking myself how does this happen. I am wondering why it is important to only get the entire family together for a funeral or a wedding but NO ONE comes to family reunions. Why is it we can talk to each other like we really care only at funerals and not everytime we talk.

Family is something that can be taken away almost in a blink of an eye. We all should become better about keeping in touch and just calling to say I love you instead of waiting a year and saying 'oh thought I would call because cousin jim died."

just a thought to ponder.

Think about it!
Amber

Life

2008-04-09T10:37:00.002-05:00

This week has been a bit difficult trying to sort through all of the mishaps in life.
My dad and brother could have been seriously injured or more this past weekend while they were in a wreck. Luckily, they are breathing and walking and still function. I would say back to normal but the only normal one in the group I would say is my brother lol. He is an eagle surrounded by turkeys.
Then one of my brother in law's was in a motorcycle accident and gave us another scare-luckily he is alive too. His leg may not feel so great after the little adventure but it's still attached.

Its just a small reminder of how quick life and plans can change. We really should just go to bed every night being thankful that we are alive and those that we love will see another day. It may be a painful day but at least our hearts are still beating and we can still feel the sun and fresh breeze on our skin.

Think about it people AND BUCKLE UP ALWAYS!

New House

2008-03-30T20:06:00.006-05:00

So we bought this house and it is great. It is a 5 bedroom 3 bath. We are all excited and thrilled to have this opportunity. Bryan and I never thought we would have our own home. So it is a double wide so what. It is big and perfect for us.

School started back for me. Kathy is about to start baseball and be done with 1st grade. Shawn is about to turn 3 and will start tumbling in May and start preschool in August. Bryan is still just working really hard for us.

The weather is starting to warm up so that is nice. I hate cold weather. My cat had kittens like 5 days after moving in. We got a new Boston terrier puppy that is so cute and funny. Her name is Miss. Lilly. At first Lucky and her weren't really good friends but now they are getting to become great friends.

Holler back soon.

The Parkers

The First Thought

2008-03-10T13:15:00.000-05:00

So many of my friends and family have a blog world. I got to thinking about one. And it finally hit me that this is so much better than actually mailing out a family newsletter or a huge email with tons of attachments.
My life is getting busy as a wife, a mother, a student, and just as a person. And there are several who are interested in what is happening in our daily lives. So for your enjoyment we proudly introduce you to our family blog site.
Feel free to check it daily, monthly or yearly. Have a great one and hope you have fun.

The Parkers